i want ecstasy

i want to expand so wide
that i can swallow the sky
feel the stars burn in my belly
warming me
for a nap

i want to shrink so small
that i can fall down through the earth
rolling
bouncing like a pinball between particles of dirt and sand
down through the hot core
and through the other side
then floating, flying
carried out into the cool blue universe
by the wind of the moon's revolution

i want to drink soma

i want to whirl and whirl
until i disappear
and become everything at once

i want to die still living
my new path revealed
by the light of 1000 glowing lamps

i want to dance with a king
before the belly of the Goddess

and i will only walk with god
if i meet him on the path
to the Heavenly Gates
even then
i go my own way