false prophet

Part I
tell me
should i be ashamed of my needs?
why?
they are sacred
not in the sacrificial sense
but bold and real
tender and intimate and demanding
like god
growing and changing
like me

why do you look at me that way?
as if you are trying to disguise your judgement
as if you could judge me?
i am holy
not necessarily pure
i am no lamb, no virgin, no pristine watery-eyed thing
but i am good
beautiful and real
like life

not all of God's children are called to be martyrs.

Part II
it seems, my love
that you have even fooled yourself.

i will pray your strength, false prophet
for you will carry that cross
alone.
still, remember me...

salvation is not in your hands
you are not my hero
but you will die for this.
and i will pray, for your sake
that you will rise again
and live.