1. Some children are demons sent directly from hell to torment their teachers.
2. I wish I had a butt/ breasts/ skin/ legs/ teeth/ etc. like hers.
3. "You made me hit you!"
4. My cousin is really, really attractive...
5. And the BIG one: Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find anyone better than my soon-to-be ex-husband. My brain screams "YES! He was a total bastard!!! You can do so much better!" But honestly, something in my heart doesn't know. Is this because I secretly think that deep down he's a great guy and/or vastly improving, and I should have given it another shot? Maybe. But it's more likely that I just think all men are bastards, on some level, and the bastard you know is better than the bastard you don't know, right?
Plus, I get lonely. That probably qualifies as another thought that a strong black woman of the new millenium shouldn't think. However, it's my truth, and I would venture to say that most of the folks this side of 55 claiming to be a part of the "alone but never lonely" crowd are delusional. Never? Come on...
Still, would I sacrifice my dreams and hopes to return to a comfortable but overwhelmingly mediocre marriage? No.
I don't think...
Anyway, enough rambling. Here's an interesting article I read recently, somewhat related to this post: http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/08/26/o.divorce.dreams/ Very thought provoking for me, but a good read regardless.
Take care people!
2. I wish I had a butt/ breasts/ skin/ legs/ teeth/ etc. like hers.
3. "You made me hit you!"
4. My cousin is really, really attractive...
5. And the BIG one: Sometimes I wonder if I'll ever find anyone better than my soon-to-be ex-husband. My brain screams "YES! He was a total bastard!!! You can do so much better!" But honestly, something in my heart doesn't know. Is this because I secretly think that deep down he's a great guy and/or vastly improving, and I should have given it another shot? Maybe. But it's more likely that I just think all men are bastards, on some level, and the bastard you know is better than the bastard you don't know, right?
Plus, I get lonely. That probably qualifies as another thought that a strong black woman of the new millenium shouldn't think. However, it's my truth, and I would venture to say that most of the folks this side of 55 claiming to be a part of the "alone but never lonely" crowd are delusional. Never? Come on...
Still, would I sacrifice my dreams and hopes to return to a comfortable but overwhelmingly mediocre marriage? No.
I don't think...
Anyway, enough rambling. Here's an interesting article I read recently, somewhat related to this post: http://www.cnn.com/2008/LIVING/personal/08/26/o.divorce.dreams/ Very thought provoking for me, but a good read regardless.
Take care people!
3 comments:
I've thought some of the same thoughts lady...and what can I say? Questioning your own thoughts and attempting to make sense of them frequently, it's a sign of maturation! Love you and hope you're SUPER well!
p.s. ur a great writer. been readin ur blog since the day i got the e-mail that u began blogging.
Sis! Wow. How refreshing to know that I am not alone (as Tiffany said)! Knowing that we have the ability to be aware of our thoughts, assess them, and express them is comforting, for in that expression comes the kind of liberation that doesn't promise the absence of these pestering thoughts, but the strange comfort that anybody who says they DON'T have these kinds of thoughts at SOME point is a blatant liar and we are just as human, alive, and engaged in the living process as is possible for this moment. You are phenomenal for being bold enough to be honest with yourself; thus challenging every reader to do the same! Keep On Moving!
I just read the article and it is thought-provoking indeed: it provides possible answers to questions...then opens doors for more questions...I think we all have our own answers...or so we think...
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